This entry was suppose to be something completely different but I think that was a moment of venting. I’m sitting here listening to “Blue and Red” by Sky Sailing, now known as Owl City.
What I was originally going to blog about was that I was, and still am to some, viewed as a “standby”. When everyone else is busy I’ll call so and so, that’s me. I think because I THOUGHT people found me interesting they genuinely liked me. I was just used to kill time. I don’t think anyone should be put in that position. So I’ve gotten rid of a lot of “acquaintances” and have a few more to go.
I want people to like me for me, as I would think everyone does. One thing I won’t ever accept is someone trying to change me. I’m not shallow, an asshole, selfish, greedy or arrogant. Just because I’m quiet doesn’t mean I’ll easily bend to someones will. One of my closest friends found that out. For someone who usually gets what he wants he hasn’t quite figured out how that happened.
It’s amazing how a lot of people think. I’m very big on RAK, random acts of kindness. I get sooo many odd responses. Not every person is out just to lookout for themselves. Those little acts catch people off guard and they smile. While getting them to smile is not my intent I absolutely love that it does happen. If I’m pissed off in traffic I’m not going to honk my horn or cut others off. I just don’t see what throwing out more negative energy does to benefit anyone. You just end up upset and taking someone else down with you.
